Increasingly emotional.

I just sent my mom an incredibly worrying text.

But I'm at wits end, I know I got myself into this rut, and I don't have anyone else to blame when I present my results shame faced to my classmates and my advisor.

I've shamed myself, my family, everything I've worked for.

A sad face cannot adequately express how SHIT I feel right now.

I really can't do this anymore even though I want it.