a max of 18.

the day has been somewhat beautiful.

went to bed at 3, stirred at 9.
worked on macro assignment,
slept in till about 1.
worked on macro assignment whilst getting my heart torn into pieces.
what i originally brushed off as a stupid show,
c'mon talking cats and dogs?
man, how original can these tvb get?
haha.
but it sure did tug at my heart strings beginning episode 15.
i'm such a sucker for all things romantic.

i'm one of those who loves flowers, who may be so smittened with you, i'll fall for anything regardless of originality.

then it was Bhouston!
mygosh.
i was so afraid that it was going to be a scam of sorts, (after that incident, i was left scarred.a little.hurhur)
the hype, the energy, the lifting of hands.

had to constantly remind myself its about God and myself,
and I was in no position to judge.
DUH.

it was so hard to worship initially,
what with my thoughts drifting to others,
stupid me!
i know!

but during one of the songs, after the russell's prayed,
and after i felt a tad bit uncomfrtable,
and after how he spoke about positioning your heart,
(i must remember!),
I really felt God around me.
believe it or not.
its an undescribable feeling.
i'm pretty sure i wasn't trying to be emotional,
i am certain that i wasn't playing things up either,
i was learning to say no to blind faith!

AMEN!
i'm certainly learning lots this year, spiritual wise.
and, he spoke.

very frank, no air,
spoke on Joshua 1.
how though God promised joshua territory,
it wasn't going to come easy, what with having to take the territory from *Ahem.
'BE STRONG AND COURAGEOUS' was emphasised thrice in the passage.

later he concluded on how to claim your territory.

1) HUMILITY
2) HONESTY!what i thought spoke to me most, seeing how tempted i am to be unethical. hurhur.GUILTY!
3) HOLY SPIRIT
-there's no way Joshua could have defeated 31 kings without having God's grace and strength.

it reminded me of the battles i have to fight.
i don't think i'm fully grasping God's plans for me because I'm afraid of the obstacles that I may have to overcome.
BUT I HAVE TO REMEMBER HIS PROMISES!

J REMEMBER J, REMEMBER!