i don't know what i want.

i thought i knew what i want.
but that was last week.

then today, i changed my mind, yet again.

i know this is not the time,
but i really am getting impatient.
ahah.
i'm being ridiculous.
i'm hoping that by throwing a tantrum,
prince charming will show up at my doorstep.

hmm.

i told myself that i wasn't going to settle for less.
if i do fall in love, i want to fall in love the right way,
okay so that may be really hard.
but i guess if the person is really the one,
God will make me go weak in the knees.

last week,
i was head over heels this particular n.
it certainly helped that he played the electric and bass.

and know that i know he doesn't really enjoy his music,
except well maybe for a few bands here and there from the 90s.

i think i want someone who's politically aware/sensitive, and wanting to do something about it,
who's inclined to reading,
who's inclined to taking long strolls in the park,
dead in the middle of the night,
ahaha,
who's a little fun loving,
who really enjoys music,
and wouldn't mind hanging out at jazz bars,
wasting the night away.
literally.
hahaha.

am i being being too much of an idealist?

maybe i should place an ad in the yellow pages you think?