tonight's the night.

so much has happened in the past weeks.

the year is coming to pass.
another month and its byebye 08 and hello 09'.

its scary for us.
not knowing what holds for me.

its been a bumpy ride this year.

and i know its not going to be any easier the next.

'whoever said it was going to be easy?' quote Sling

one thing i've struggled with the past few months,

and have only come to grasp at this hour of the night is

humility does not equal mediocrity.

for some warped reason, my mind has been fixated on the idea that to be a true child, i need to be humble, hence, not looking after greatness

and i took it the wrong way.

i understood it as 'not doing my best',

to remain in this spirit of 'false' humility.

i think in God's dictionary, it falls under lazy.

though Moses, David never seeked great things for themselves,

they did their best.

a lot of the disciples were learned men.

though they never pursued wealth or fame in such matters or manners known to man this day,

it didn't stop them for doing their best for God.

God I'm sorry.

oh wow. i can't believe i'm only getting this now.

it all seems so 'DUH' right now.

the past few days i've been asking for answers,

and it comes now.

i feel so silly.

but thank You Jesus.

: ))

Remember, blessed are those pure in heart. Peter .... ??

and pure doesn't mean pure without sin, or without fault.

it just means unbiased, clear motivation seeking after God.